Your writing breaks my heart! Thank you for sharing!
I grew up with a Pentecostal Christian family, luckily my parents weren’t too ‘extreme’, and I removed myself from it early—but I’ve seen so much hypocrisy in the whole charismatic Christianity movement to make me sick: The people claiming to follow Jesus are not acting the very least like how he’s portrayed through stories of compassion and kindness. (Like my uncle, who’s also a pastor, calling my cousin a whore and condemning her to hell when she came out as gay).
I came out of a decade long relationship with a narcissist 2,5 years ago and immediately (and somehow subconsciously) I started reclaiming my voice and breaking out of the silence. I took voice lessons, sang out loud at home for hours every night, started participating in storytelling competitions, taking a poetry class, started writing—and I realized that what I was do was clearing my throat chakra / re-finding my voice that had been blocked for so long. All along, I’ve been writing the words: Speak your truth, even if your voice shakes and also read out loud Audre Lorde’s ‘Your silence will not protect you’ with tears streaming down my cheeks.
I’m so happy you are breaking out of the silence. Keep sharing and healing! Thanks again!