Oh yes, same here, I had lovers that mastered it, but it’s sooo hard to DIY. I’ve tried too (and succeeded only once but was never able to again).
A tip: I know people who have been very successful with the njoy pure wand. It’s pricey, so still on my wishlist so far. Their toys are amazing (I own one, but not that one) all stainless steel, really heavy and beautiful! [not a sponsored message, but I’d accept an offer for toy tester for them any day 😂]